I made my dad cry today.
I didn't mean to but I think he took me the wrong way.

He called me today from work and was sad because of somethings before. He started crying, I know he was trying to hide it but I could still tell.
Its really sad, I'm sad... whats there to do?
He says he's frustrated and tired with life right now and says it all our fault.
But.... I'm frustrated too

I can't express my love to him... parents in general.
Its hard to talk to them and then I just get angry which makes them feel even worse.
I seem like it, but I'm not that expressive, lol. I'm a jerk and I'm always mean. I insult people on a daily bases. I can't keep a straight face and I'm always joking around when talking to people. I'm a little bastard that should be shot in the head -__- (sometimes I feel like that would really happen)
 
My friend told me that  as kids, we blindly follow authority, but when we get older, we learn to make our own choices and adults discriminate against that, so wtf  (thanks umma^^)

Well, thanks for listening/reading my emo moment

GWANG!

Yet again, just a random entry XDD

Don't have to reply or anything, just something random XD

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Melissa, just my name of course ^^
2. Missa /Twin 2... I only have a couple friends that call me missa and twin 2 XD I'm a twin and I'm the younger one so I'm twin #2!
3. Agi XDDDD Only 2 people call me by this and they're very special to me... others will call me this but I won't like it.. hmph ::pout:: XD I'm not really the youngest, it mean baby, but I'm actually one of the older ones^^ oh well


THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. shinigami91
2. shinigami78886
3. lone3r/L0ne3R (more varieties)


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My hair, I just really like the way it looks on my head^^
2. Ummm... my stomach.... only when I wake up though, then I hate it at night XD
3. My very big butt... cause its actually big for an asian chick :P


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My shoulders... there wides -___-
2. My hips... I never noticed but there pretty flat
3. My butt, I like it but then again its to big, hmph


THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Korean.
2. Korean.
3. Korean.
I'm full korean... I can't do anything about that...


THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Losing anything/anyone
2. Pink
3. Getting hurt? idk


THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Something to drink... Powerade or tea at school and water at home^^
2. Ipod/Music. GWAH!! They fulfill me life :D
3. Umma and Appa cause their the ones I talk to the most^^


THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Happy bunny PJ bottoms.
2. Yellow Bronco Billy's, Cripple Creek casino hoodie
3. Plain white T


THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. TXfXQ!!!! OF COURSE XDDDD Can't live without them ::sigh::
2. Big Bang! So fun to dance to their music
3. Malice Mizer! They totally got me into jrock and all asian music^^


THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS: (at the moment)
1. Purple Line- DBSK, Just came out but its so addicting ^^ Its a great study song XD
2. I want you- Seo In Young, I don't know I just really like the rap in this song and just the beat
3. Everytime We Touch- Cascada, I know its old but still I really like this song right now^^

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Trust... In almost every "love" relation I've been cheated on, so I would like it if that didn't happen to me^^
2. No change, I want to be able to go out with a person and still be friends even if something bad happens^^ FOREVER FRIENDS kinda thing
3. Love... well who doesn't want love, its better than nothing^^


TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. I rank #2 in my pre-calculus class
2. I really hate color
3. I've never gone anywhere out of the state


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Smile
2. Eye color
3. Hands... does that make sense?? lol

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Sitting at the computer
2. Drawing? I don't do it alot but I like to do it when I'm inspired^^
3. Hanging out with friends, I just love them XDDD


THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Study for the quiz tomorrow ( but I won't do it anyway -___-)
2. Go to Korea^^ Haven't been there in forever.
3. Loose weight, cause I feel really fat :P


THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. Graphic Design... hmmm got inspired in junior high (am I old for using that term?)
2. Police? something related to that, I want to be able to protect and help lol
3. owner? Manger thing... I always wanted my own business^^

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. KOREA!!!! I WANT TO GO THERE SOOOO BAD! I miss that place ::sigh::
2. JAPAN! Anywhere is Japan, I'll be happy^^
3. Europe? Germany? I have friends that go there and they tell me how beautiful it is^^


THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
For boys:
1. Matthew
2. Jae
3. Ray
~idk, I like really weird names...


For girls:
1. Asia
2. Ashley
3. Shin
~ yet again, I like really weird names^^

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Find love (so cheesey)
2. Travel every where I want to go^^
3. Meet all my favorite stars... especially DBSG!!!

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. I like to take care of my hair, it has to look perfectly straight than I won't care^^
2. I talk about dating and guys with friends^^
3. My shoes... I only wear boots^^ I love boots, there so fashionable... so fashion too?

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY (LIKE) A BOY:
1. I hate makeup -___- never wore it and when I had too, they help me down -___- unless I put it on for halloween
2. I wear boys clothes... so much easier to pick out and wear. psssha XD
3. I have a deep voice and I'm protective? I dont' know I care alot.. but isn't that like a girl too? hmmm... well I know I'm a tomboy- my family always told me I was like a guy^^

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW
1. sly_pantera (she'll most likely already have done it...)
2. sexi neko
3. .... I don't know hmmm soloscry? ^^

Recieved the letter "I" from sly_pantera! AND "L" from misanmirin ::happy::
Comment and I'll give you a letter; then list 10 things you love that begin with that letter. Afterward, post this in your journal and give out some letters of your own.

1. Ignorance- I love how people are so entertaining because they're stupid XDDD
2. Ice Cream- Cause its ice cream... duh XDDD I'm eating triple chocolate fudge now^^
3. Igloos- Cause there cute... you can live in them
4. Icicles- I love seeing them hanging down from the roof and sparkle ::sigh::
5. Ink- Ink pens are the only writing utensils that I love to use^^
6. Ice- Its cold and cools any drink easily (ahhhhh)
7. Imagination- Everyone has one, they make the world go round^^ They're so creative and can contain anything that expresses a person
8. Ideas- My father always lectures me about making my own "idea" so now I've come to really hate but love this word^^
9. imprison- I don't know, I just really like this word.... it sounds evil?
10. Illustrations- I love to see peoples art, they give me great joy.... unless its bad then I criticize it.. sorry^^

1. Languages- The world is filled with such diversity XD
2. Lunch- Eating is very important^^
3. Light- Cause I wanna be able to see in the dark... ^^
4. Love- Its an emotion that is closely related to hate. It can be discovered in the oddest and most uncomfortable of times. Its what we feel when we see people we cherish ^^
5. Lace- cause its all pretty and frilly
6. Loser- Cause I'm using that word right now XD
7. Long- I miss my long hair
8. Life- Always gotta make it enjoyable, always have to laugh, cry, and do whatever you need to do in one day of your life^^
9. Lamb- XIAH JUNSU!!
10. Lion- YEONGOONG JAEJOONG!!


..... Anyway, all done XDDD x2^^

From/For sly_pantera^^

( > ' ' ) > ~ < ( ' ' < ) ~ ( > ' ' ) > ~ < ( ' ' < )

LOL XD

What to talk about... hmm, well for me school will start in about 3 weeks, a little less XD
How boring, anyway, our friend Alison(the cali friend) is here, she got here Wed.^^
Its been cool hanging with her, yesterday we went to the Garden of the Gods^^ Took alot of pictures and walked around. The first rock formation we saw was the kissing camels, but of course its something I've seen before^^
When we decided to drive home, she gasped at deer^^ She said she never saw real deer before, lol

After we went to eat and of course drove home^^ But before all of this, Ashley <333 had come over and played with us. We raced on our PS2 and dang she beat me, lol ::pout::

Anyway, I woke up at 5:30 about this morning, crazy... I couldn't sleep so took a shower and tried to nap...... it didn't work. Afterwards I just decided to get onto the computer and find something to do, but it was still pretty boring.... XP But I found that Alison make noises in her sleep and even talks a little^^ lol, how cute XD

Well I guess thats all I'll type for now, yay, byebye

P.S. I wish I was high, lmao!!!!XD

Last night we were told to come out to the shop and do laundry.... parents own a cleaners.... anyway today we woke up late, lol

When we got ready and were picked up, my sister suddenly said, "i wanna cut my hair" and I was like I should maybe to....
At the shop after starting the laundry, my mom is getting ready to leave... we're surprised and ask where she is going... she just rushes out and takes us with her...

We're were going to get our hair cut^^
Mel (my sister) got it cut real short like a boy, but has this one strand thats long and still blond ^^ I didn't cut my hair but instead got my ear pierced^^ so now I have 10, yay

That is, lol
LAME!!!!!

This post is about me and my stupid phone..... I text alot but I'm only given 500 text messages... So last month I went over by 750 text messages.... my parents were pissed and told me if I did it again I would get my phone taken away.... Sooooo this last night I had gotten the bill and say this time I went 982 over.... So my phone was taken away, my mom tried to be scary and yell at me, but that never works. Then about 20 mins later she said "Melissa, you have to go get a job and pay all the money back... so the total came to $173.20..... Well that all I'm posting just about that...

Hello...

So, we're back^^
Missing Colorado was a surprise but I'm happy to be back. But in Cali we did make a friend, her names Alision, shes very nice... nice fashion and cool hair, lol... Any way she might be visiting and staying with us^^ We met the 2nd? day of our vacation at a art school^^ That sat we also met the guy that created Family Guy... his name was Peter, but the off subject... Anyway, we started talking and found lots of similarities^^ She's very interesting and a year younger then us^^ but we have lots of friends with different ages. When we were leaving, we exchanged emails and other things... now we talk, on aim and we just gave her our numbers^^ So enough talking about that... lol

Ok, so I think I'm posting this because I'm bored and didn't say alot about my vacation and blah blah blah... Lets talk about that.... Vacation was fun, we went to KOREAN TOWN, lol thats also where we met Alison^^ Everyday of our vacation was hot, I thought I would die T_T Anyway... we also met Mr. Chris, he was the director of something.... lol I don't remember, any way he was real short and thought we were scary, we also met his wife and she was so cute^^ with 2 dogs the wouldn't stop barking... The next day we met Mr. Oh... co producer of Avatar... I think and also a character in Avatar(one of the pirates) he's the one with long hair.... he was real dark cause he liked soccer so much^^ Anyway, he also met his wife and she was gorgeous... lol The last one we met was Peter... like I said above^^ Well he was cool cause he was fluent in English and when he spoke Korean it sounded like how we spoke^^ We got him to sign 2 autographs for Mel's friends... We also got autographs fro the creators of Avator^^... Anyway, we also met Peters wife^^ she was also pretty, and they already had a daughterXD I think thats all I'll type for now... lol

Ok, so I woke up early and got ready already to come back to Colorado.... but its only 6:21 so I still got an hour before we leave and then we have to drop my "aunt" off then drive another hour or so to the airport^^

Anyway, I'll type what we did yesterday.... ummmm, lets see, we spend the whole day with unee(korean term for older female sibling/aquantence). First going to Borders ^^, then to a museum, and after the Mall.... At night we went to Hollywood and just walked around, ate and took pics. The last thing we did was karaoke, LMAO, it was so funny, I've never been to that before so it was intersting.... We only did that cause Unee wanted me to dance, but of course I refused... RAWR, lol

So now I'm just sitting on my but..... bored.... kinda awake.... and not expecting to type much. So sorry Ashley, cause today I'm not going to type anymore, until I get home^^

SARANGHAE<333

So the plans have been changed and we're leaving tomorrow^^

Yesterday, hmmmm, what did we do.... oh all woke up late and around 12 decided to go to the anime expo^^ It was kind of a long drive but it was worth it I guess. Once we arrived we had to park in a seperate building and then walk to the place where it was held.... so many people were in cosplay, but most were in Bleach. There were a couple of twins and lots of hott guys, lol, some Lolita and some big animals/cartoons.

It took a while to get tickets in, and we first went straight to a cosplay presentation. After my aunt told us to look around ourselves... we went to Artist Lane^^ after we went down to the expo and damn, so bigg!!! O-O After exploring we first came to a yaoi both. where Mel bought a yaoi paddle.... we went back to our aunt(taking us a while to find her) we all sat and decide to go back down to the expo, again.... Going down there we explored some more... she was looking for somethng for her little sister. When the expo was closing in the back we found a korean both, and they had cds I wanted.... but to bad for me i didn't bring any money, and I wasn't going to let anyone lend it to me.... especially my aunt or mel.... Mel was pissy anyway about the money....

After we left, not buying alot. we walked to a restaurant and wait almost an hour to be served.... the place was filled with anime expo people^^ We ate great and went back for an 8 o"clock show(which was the main event). It was fun, people cam on stage in cosplay and performing random things^^ One was especially hilarious. After the first portion, there was a 30 min. show. It was about ninjas and pirates... it was a martials art performance, how fun, it was amazing cause they were also break dancing, which I love <333

We left a little early... so we didn't watch who won^^ but it was fun anyway... we came home and of course went straight to sleep, So now its a new day... well nothing eventful yet^^

This is complete and upper babble....

I have to leave to the airport in about 3-4 hours.... and I can't sleep.
At Live Journal I found and know that I don't post anything.... well thats cause I don't know what I should post... So for today I'll type about the preparation I had to do for this very annoying yet exciting trip^^

First, we (my sister and I) had to be told when we were leaving which took about a month to decide... so when we finally bought the tickets... they were pretty expensive and we had to get last minute seats, which were not easy to find. (People really don't want to sit next to each other) After we had to start packing but found we didn't have enough clothes and so went shopping.... this took 2 days T_T
             The first day, I only bought a shirt, while my sister bought 2 pairs of pants and a couple of shirts.... how annoying.
             The  second day is when I got all my clothes, but that day was also the day of a certain birthday party... which wasn't planned at all... so we just played DDR for a couple of hours.... but thats off subject.
Later that night, we came home after stopping at Kohl's and McDonalds... we came home and started packing, but we had already started that day, my mother wouldn't shut her big mouth for a second, grr... After about an hour of packing and repacking we ended up with 2 suit cases filled with all the material we needed.... This all comes to end with me sleeping about an hour and then talking on aim to a very good friend and deciding to type this into my live journal...

Oh and lets thank 2 very special people who nagged me about not posting at my live lournal... cough cough, Mel and Ashley... cough cough ^_^
Also Morning, Afternoon, and night to those who read this^^