I got my AP scores today :D

I actually got a 2 in English, I looked at it and went, wth?! xD

Online family, I'm so sorry.
I seriously feel like I failed.

I really wanted to go and hang out.
My parents just don't care... mianhae.

Its a stupid reason to cry over, but I seriously am crying.
Help me stop, haha

So, today... is very hot -__-

Anyway, I had to g out and get my oil changed on my ugly truck (hehe)
But, I didn't know the way to the place my parents take their cars. So~ I called my dad and he said that my uncle knew the way. I'm like, ok I'll go talk to uncle.
My uncle calls my parents and the plan was for us to go together in my truck and take a shuttle car from there and go to my parent's shop and then take the shuttle car back. (I wonder if thats what its really called...) But that didn't happen. Instead, my uncle took his car and I took mine.

While I was following him, gah, I thought I was seriously going to get into an accident. He'd suddenly turn right or left and I'd be like, where they heck you go and I'd be freaking out. He neglected his blinkie! Then when he finally reached the place he made all these crazy turns and I got so lost :P.So, we dropped my car off, now we had to go to my parent's shop. We go, yay, I get my mom's keys cause she needs her car's oil changed too. We leave again to go get her car and while we're going I notice my uncle's driving.
- He doesn't use his blinkie and when he does its to late....
- He likes to get real close to the other cars and huge trucks T_T
- He likes to drift and speed (speed more then me O_o)

Then there was this crazy lady who wouldn't go when there were no cars and this other guy that saw us but still tried to lane change and almost hit us. I was yelling like heck, woh!

So, there was my heart attack for the day^^

really pissed right now...

But besides that, my parents just called me to tell me to never answer the door.
I asked why?!
They said that today? There was a family and a couple of guys came to their door saying they were utilities people and they needed to come in and check something. So of course the family let them in, but as they went in it went bad. The guys tied the family up with ropes and asked where their money and valuables were, blah blah blah. The family said they wouldn't talk, but then the bad guys grabbed their baby and said they would through it (idk if its a boy or girl) out the window and kill it. So of course the family talked and the guys got away with everything.
The End.

So people, don't open your doors to just anyone. Check before and if its defiantly someone you don't know or have ever seen then don't answer the door.
Lesson learned.

So, I got my license recently...
And so my parents insured my truck for both my sister and me, but they needed our last report cards so that they could give us a student discount.
So, I'm looking everywhere for my report card and even ask my umma (Ashley) and it was no where.
So, I just told me dad and he starts yelling at me, saying it my fault and telling me to look again, when I've been looking for a whole week.
I hang up on him and start looking again, he calls back and says he has it.... He took it a while ago cause he saw it on our dinner table, and thats where I had left it!

GAH!!!

GOT MY LICENSE!!!
Finally!!!!

YAY ME :D

I might finally get my license!!!
I say might cause I might not pass the test, but atleast I'm taking it!!!!!
YAY!!! It's next Wednesday, family! come congrat me :D

MY GRADUATION!
GAH!!!!!

Haha, I'm officially out of high school^^
It was fun.... kinda :D
I was happy to do it with my umma and hamtaro.
It was fun, my voice feels funny cause I just kept yelling, aigoo.
I'm happy, its now over^^

Till one, my sister started trying to "secretly" compete with me -__-
Till, I noticed that my sister again was being fake and covered up her bad skin in her pictures... aigooo
Till, my parents came home and started bugging me about my hoodies being on the dining room chair.
Till, my mother started calling me names and saying how we live like hobos.... makes no sense.
Till, some chick I clearly don't remember started talking to me and bugging me cause I don't remember her.... sheesh.

I'm not happy at all today.
Theres this annoying guy that I write notes to and he doesn't understand or misreads my notes so now hes like making all this shit up in his head.
Then there's my father who is just plain bleh cause I've have my permit for 2 years and I really want to get my license and stuff and he said we'd get them this month but I ask again and now I have to wait more months!
What is this?!

I'm sitting here doing my calc homework and I'm totally not getting the answers.
I ask my sister for help cause shes like, oh I did, I know what to do and everything. So I look at her work, but she doesn't have any! Then I ask her how I do it and how she did it, but she can't explain....

Now what does that tell me?
Such a freakin' loser!

But I finally got some of them right, some I still can't get...]
Anyone want to help me?

I GOT ACCEPTED INTO THE SCHOOL OF MINES^^

So I'm a senior now and I applied to only 2 colleges.
I just got an acceptance letter from one of them, but I don't know if I'm happy.

Its a good school, but I really wanted to go to a school that still had my closest friends...
Its stupid to think this way cause we all go seperate ways, but I seriously don't want to loose these friends.

Should I go?

LJ seems differnt :P

Any, in school at the moment and very bored.
Say something?
^^

Its weird.
Its very weird.
I can't seem to think.

I can't remember today.
What happen today?
Will this always happen?
Every once a year?

I remember once,
I was told,
Be careful of my close friends
Why?
Because if I do anything wrong,
they will become my enemy.

I don't want this.

How are you feeling right now?
How am I feeling?

Can I feel anything right now?
Can you feel anything right now?

Do we even care anymore?
Whats the point?
Was there ever a point?

Why can't I just move on?
Why can't you?

Why did it have to end up like this?

I don't know what I'm doing.
I don't know what I'm suppose to do.
I'm so confused

Is there a reason to doing this?
Whats the point?
Why can't I get it?

Its useless
Horrible
Waste of time

It just sucks.

I want to do something!
Anything to make things better.

Was it really all my fault?
Am I the one to blame?
Then blame me?

Should I say I'm sorry?
What can I do?

I WANT TO DO SOMETHING!
I REALLY WANT TO DO SOMETHING!!

THIS IS TEARING ME APART,
I don't understand,
Am I really that terrible?
Should I just leave?

If there are one or more people on your friends list who make your world a better place just because they exist, and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the Internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

I made my dad cry today.
I didn't mean to but I think he took me the wrong way.

He called me today from work and was sad because of somethings before. He started crying, I know he was trying to hide it but I could still tell.
Its really sad, I'm sad... whats there to do?
He says he's frustrated and tired with life right now and says it all our fault.
But.... I'm frustrated too

I can't express my love to him... parents in general.
Its hard to talk to them and then I just get angry which makes them feel even worse.
I seem like it, but I'm not that expressive, lol. I'm a jerk and I'm always mean. I insult people on a daily bases. I can't keep a straight face and I'm always joking around when talking to people. I'm a little bastard that should be shot in the head -__- (sometimes I feel like that would really happen)
 
My friend told me that  as kids, we blindly follow authority, but when we get older, we learn to make our own choices and adults discriminate against that, so wtf  (thanks umma^^)

Well, thanks for listening/reading my emo moment